Turned against me

What if I commit myself to a mental asylum
and go on a wild self destructive spree
would all all of you then who were near me
begin to avoid and escape and fear me?

If I let go of everything I have,
would it count for nothing?
Can you give up what you have
is it in you control?

What if I choose insanity
while I am perfectly sane?
What if I choose profanity
and have no fear or shame?
would I be the one responsible
would I be the one to blame
is it really under my control
or is it just a part of the game?

They all tell me that I should be happy
there is nothing I should be worried about
life is beautiful it is lovely
and it will all surely work out.

What if I change the costumes
and on a beach wear a fur coat
what if I take out the bermudas on a glacier,
when in the desert wear a raincoat.
Would they call me crazy,
would they call me insane.
would they stop coming near me
and would I be the one to blame?

They all say I am not bold
don't have have courage
that's what I am told
If however I take a step
they would pull me down
If I be a little bold
they'll have a frown.

What if I decide that I do not want to live at all
do you think they'll chastise me
for being a coward , lunatic and all?
Let me just put my head down
on the desk that lies still
sleep till sleep abandons me if it ever will.

What if I commit myself to a psychiatrist's
and let him with my mind play around
what if I choose to sit around all day
while the shrink tries to pin me to the ground.

I am not averse to any opinion that's converse
I just want some clarity
just want some direction it may then be perverse.

Hi , Hello , ok it's time to go now
it's time to go.